Sometimes it is easy to let fear overwhelm me... Not the greatest of Christian moments, I know. But the truth, none-the-less. After watching our little girl walk out our door never to hear from her again, I am so afraid that it will happen to us again with our baby.
A small run-down of the situation and why I feel slightly scared. July 6 was supposed to be the magic day where our baby was definitely turned into an adoptive placement. His parents would no longer have rights to him. But there was a slight glitch. And now we have to wait and pray until next month to see if these things worked out in our favor. Our case worker assures us that all there is to getting this done is more paperwork.
Even with those assurances, I am still concerned. My mind comes up with all kinds of scenarios. I just can't imagine losing our precious boy. Silly, probably? Just drawing on past experience, yes? Not trusting God? Definitely... But how I'm feeling anyway. I will be so glad when the next court date comes and we find out for sure that we are safe and secure with our two boys.
Having a baby has been fun! He is starting to walk seriously already. I keep not totally encouraging it because I've only had a baby for six weeks and I'm not ready for him to turn into a toddler. But it is fun to share these "first" moments with him since we have missed so many firsts in his life.
Austin is doing so well with the baby. He is learning to love him. He even asked the other day to go outside and wouldn't go unless the baby went too. So sweet!
We are blessed. If you pray for us, just pray for peace and a resolution to this current issue. I truly believe we will come out fine, it's just another waiting game, which is fairly normal for the foster/adopt process.
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