Adjustments

We spent the last week and a half in Ohio with my family. It was such a wonderful time for me. I always enjoy spending time with family, but this time having help with three little ones was very nice as well! At least the adults outnumbered the kids for a while.

We drove all day and most of the night last night to get back home. We got in about 2:30 am and our baby was up at 6:30 am ready for his day!

It is an adjustment for me to have a baby again. When we got Austin, he was eating mostly table food and sleeping all through the night. This baby is still very much on formula and wakes up some in the night. But he is such a wonderful happy baby!

We did find out today that our daughter will most likely leave us within the next two weeks. I am sitting here having really mixed feelings about that news. It has been a difficult time both with her and with working with the agency. I think for us, it is better to be able to just have kids that we can raise as our own, with our values and our own ways of disciplining. Having people in and out of your home, never really telling you anything yet expecting you to parent, ect. just isn't a very easy way to live.

It looks like the next two weeks will be full of adjustments, one to having a baby, and to possibly dealing with the feelings of loss for another child. You worry about your kids no matter how long you have had them. You worry how they will be treated, will they get the help they need, will their new families teach them about Jesus - which is the most important question.

But God knows what is best for us and for her. So I just have to rely on Him fully. It is interesting realizing that change is coming, you find yourself trying to prepare emotionally for it, and that is a rather difficult thing to do in reality.