Extreme Sadness - A Child Leaving

I knew this day would come, and I was dreading it... And unfortunately my suspicious were right, it is horrible. I have been crying all morning. Our daughter is being moved next Monday morning, and there is nothing we can do to change it.

There have been times during this process where I have wondered if going back to two kids would be best for me. And honestly it probably will be. But when it comes right down to it. I am so sad, I can hardly even breathe.

I know God is in control and will watch over this precious child. But the control freak in me wants me to be the one to watch over her. She has had such a hard life and I'm so afraid that the move is going to be very hard for her. Children are resilient and I know she will ultimately be ok. But wow, it hurts.

This foster experience has been kind of rough, I'll be honest. But how do you love a child as your own and send them away? I thought I could do it and be fine, but I can't. I'm not fine. It hurts my very soul!

Please just pray for us in the coming week and the days after she leaves. I will miss her with all of my heart. But I am thankful for the six weeks that God gave us. I hope she remembers that there is love in the world and that not everything in life is bad.