Being Content

I have realized lately that maybe throughout this adoption process, I have become a bit discontent. I have a beautiful little boy that I love more than anything. And he is enough.

You are asking why in the world I would need to tell myself this. Mainly because now that the idea of another child looms on the horizon, I find myself being discontent with only one child. I think of all the fun Austin would have with a brother or sister. I think about how I don't want him to grow up as an only child.

But then I am reminded, sometimes God only blesses people with one child. And that one child is still an amazing blessing from God! It's funny how the things we want sometimes overpower our reasoning and we become discontent even when we have already been blessed beyond measure.

God knows our future. He knows the desires of my heart. And He will do what is best for me. I have seen God work time and time again. But it is easy to forget when you are in the midst of turmoil.

I am so thankful to know that I can be content in the place that I am at right now. I don't have to have anything else to make my life better. My life is wonderful just the way it is. If God chooses to bless us with another child, then we will be doubly blessed. But if He doesn't ever send us another child, we have the perfect child for our family right now. And he is our forever. And in that I will be content!