Sad

I'm having such a rough day. I'm tired and being tired makes things so much worse than they probably are. I'm sad. We have lost so many children this time around in our adoption process. It really just weighs on me. And I would love to have a baby so much. It's just hard.

When we finally got licensed to foster, the lady told me it would be very quick. Yesterday, another lady told me that you could go months without a child, it just depends on who they need placed.

I am trying to not get caught up in the sadness of this process. Sometimes, it just buries me though. I know that God is totally in control even of the timing and will bring us just the right child. I'm just sad about all the losses.