"The beginning of anxiety if the end of faith; the beginning of true faith is the end of anxiety." George Meuller.
Sometimes it is interesting how you read things that you need so much! God really place things in your way to make you think or encourage or challenge you. I would say that this quote did all three things for me.
This adoption process really is a source of anxiety for me. I don't know who our children are, when they will come, their ages, their sexes, their diseases, their behaviors, ect. I worry each time we are presented with possibilities. I worry when they don't work out. I worry, I worry, I worry.
Yes, I know. Not a very Christian thing to admit. However, it is the dark, ugly truth. Waiting has to be one of the hardest things about this process. It makes me crazy sometimes... Each time we hear about a child, I just want THIS ONE to work out. I just want to be done.
But, I have to trust. I have to stop being anxious. I have to have true faith to know that God truly knows what is best for us. He knows who our children are, where they are, what their backgrounds are, when they will come home, how they will adjust. He knows all of this. He knows better than I do. He knows the right child for our family. I would take the first child I hear of. But instead, those kids aren't the BEST for us and we want God's best!!
Anxiety. It really does rob you of your joy. True faith is so much better if not even the easier route. I just need to remember that.
Thankfully, God puts little reminders in my path each day to draw my thoughts back to Him, to remind me that He will do what is best for us, and that everything will happen in His time - and that is the most wonderful thought of all!
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